I was going to make that phone call multiple times, but I kept putting it off. I always thought to myself that I’d do it tomorrow. But now there is no tomorrow and there is nothing I regret more. There is no middle ground between life and death, I think that’s the hardest thing to grasp. There are no maybes. It’s surreal, the huge change that can take place within seconds. My mom is off to take an incredibly difficult trip, one that there is no way to prepare for and one that I wish there was some way for me to protect her from. But there is nothing anyone can do to ease the pain of losing a parent. I’m left here wishing that I had said more when I had the chance.